
Bali '23-'24 - Chapter 9
"Hey is that a Vivienne Westwood necklace ?" :)





I gave Nadya my Vivienne Westwood bracelet and she took the charm off of it and turned it into a necklace and it’s so cute and adorable . She sent me many photos of herself, I loved the creativity she had to turn it into something else, why didn’t I think of that ?
Yesterday I invited her to meet me for lunch at a new dumpling place but when we arrived it was closed permanently, even though I just saw an ad for it on instagram . So we got a sandwich from “Bread” across the street and went to my balcony to eat it .




Lisa told me her friends are going to see Jimmy Carr and asked if I want to join, “Jimmy Carr is here in Bali ?! WHERE ?” I replied in disbelief and furled eyebrows . I will admit I am not giving credit to Bali for being a proper destination, I don’t realize that big music and comedy acts stop here, it’s my assumption it doesn’t have a structure that can hold that size of a performance, shame on me for not giving credit to Bali and it’s global impact and development .
“I would love to go” I said . Before we go into her friend’s house, this big house in a gated community we were arguing…. again :/ Before we walked in she stopped me and said, “can we bury the hatchet before we go in ?”
“Absolutely not” I replied without looking at her . But then I walked in the home and turned on my politeness level to 100 and rubbed her back as we talked to her mates . She turned to me when they weren’t looking and shook her head while giving me a squinted eye smile . I was torturing her but to be fair - she’s always doing it to me .
Her friends were a wealthy real estate couple and the four of us got into a van driven by their personal driver I think . We arrived early and had beers at a coffee shop, I think it was a Starbucks, yes, having beers at a Starbucks…
30 minutes later we enter a convention center like building attached to a mall . Most of the crowd were older ex pats I think . The venue was a big auditorium w/ padded fold out seats . To be honest, he’s not really my style of comedy, it’s a series of ultra fast rapid 15 second jokes w/ punchlines, not much storytelling or anticipation . But I had fun just seeing him and being w/ Lisa .
Later the 4 of us, plus another couple go to Da Maria for dinner . I absolutely HATE eating at dinners that turn into night clubs… because it makes the dinner worse and the party worse, just separate the two ! Also after eating I want to join everyone dancing, especially because I have had so many memories here meeting girls and boys - I’m getting fomo watching them .
There was a Korean guy live streaming himself at the bar, the whole iPhone w/ tripod and wires deal . I said, “let’s go behind him and start making out” . She nods willingly and we start messing around in the back of his shot, even though it was my idea, I become a bit shy and am the first one to pull away . What a lovely night <3









I received a message from a while two weeks ago from a person I didn’t know asking me about modeling and how to get into the industry, something like that . He told me we met earlier at Peele’s but I met a lot of people there so I wasn’t sure . I replied and forgot about it . This night at Klymax he introduced himself to me in the smoking room and told me it was him who sent the message, I replied warmly and we talked for 5 minutes while we chain-smoked against the blue walls . Cute kid from Pakistan w/ a cool shirt on .
He had a beautiful Asian girlfriend that I thought was really pretty, he told me she was from Norway . The three of us danced for quite a while . I offer to buy them both drinks and as I pay he puts cash in my pocket, I tried to give it back and we ended up roughhousing over who keeps the cash at the bar . It was a sweet gesture of him nonetheless . It took a lot of bravery to send that message that he did, and I respect it . I can see us having a friendship after tonite .







In the smoking area Cat and I were talking . I saw two young girls against the wall . One was wearing a Vivienne Westwood necklace .
“Hmmm I could use that as an opener” I thought to myself…
Cat saw me looking while the gears in my head were turning, she sighed as she said, “You want to talk to them don’t you ?”
“Yes I do” I said immediately .
I got up and walked over to them, I told the girl I noticed her necklace and then showed her my jewelry as well from the brand . I introduced myself and then we got to know each other . Her friend does nails, really cool artwork . Both were talking about wanting a drink but that it was too expensive .
“Let’s get you girls some drinks then, it’s on me, c’mon” I then motioned for us to go back inside . I don’t mind buying people drinks here because it’s 8 or 9$, in America is 23-27$, which is ridiculous . I was just trying to be sweet and polite but I can see how I could be annoying . I’m just trying to meet people is all .
I learned the Vivienne Westwood girl is named Maya, and she would actually become a significant person in my life . I was stuck on her like glue for 20-30 minutes, filming her dancing and taking pictures of her . She had such an forgettable youthful and sweet smile, something i can imagine even right now :)









Nadya all night at Klymax was taking pictures w/ her little Nokia digital camera of everyone . And why shouldn’t she ? We all look amazing after all .
“Take some pictures of me at my home tonite” I say in jest .
“Ok sure” she replied smiling . Nadya has been so interesting to me since day one because I don’t know what’s g going on in her head, she’s always flashing this happy-go-lucky smile w/ her perfect teeth while giving short answers to almost everything I’ve ever said or asked .
“Let’s get out of here” - for some reason I always like to say that line if the situation calls for it, I think I heard it in a movie and it just sounds cool . We share a bike and go back to mine .
“Let me take a picture of your pig shirt” she asks . While she adjusts the shirt she makes a noise like, “boop” then she snaps the picture, “aaahhh” is the sound she makes in a high pitched noise . She’s like a real life anime character .

When we wake up I suggest we get something to eat . “Do you have anything to wear ? I can’t go in this outfit” she asks . So I offered her some Vivienne Westwood leggings and a matching t shirt from the same collection . “I don’t have any shoes though” I told her w/ a sad face . “Eh.... Don’t need them” . Such a short and confident reply .
We go to the breakfast spot, “porn cakes” - Yes the restaurant is called “porn cakes” an obvious and sleazy pun on pancakes . Stores do this to grab your attention and make you come in, w/ so much competition shops will do anything to get your service, even at the cost of cheapedning the vibe of this beautiful island . On the way there I walk 2 meters to her right or to her left so I can film her walk and take videos because she’s barefoot at 10am in the most ridiculous yet expensive outfit . She’s laughing and laughing and couldn’t care less . Mysterious and silly Nadya <3
















Another night at Klymax, another savage time at the club ;) I have become close w/ Ed and Allen, two really cool kids that Cat has introduced me to . We spent the night dancing and laughing . Maya was there, and I introduced her to Ed and Allen, they loved her . I go to the restroom and someone left their ketamine in a bill sitting right above the toilet . I act like it’s an offering, I do one and then leave it there for the owner to retrieve it . Thank u !!
Later on in the night…
“Maya want to make out with/ me near the bathroom ?”
“Fuck yes” she replied . What a response !
“Allen will you film it ?” I asked, without hesitation he nodded .
I look at her for confirmation and she’s into it, so there we went at it .



“I want to end up w/ you tonight” I ask her . She wanted that as well but had to see where her friend was, as she hadn’t seen her for 30 minutes . We leave the club at the end of the night and walk into a lobby - there the friend was, sick from drinking . I stand in the 10 feet behind watching Maya console her and ask her if she’s okay . She turns to me and gives me the face of, “yeah I have to be a good friend” .
“Fuck” I think to myself . “Guess I’m going home alone” :P
She’s such a lovely person, I’m glad she cares that much about her friends . I’m sure I’ll see her many more times on this trip anyways Xx





Ed throws a dinner party and invites me over . He’s so well traveled and cultured so I know he will have some interesting friends that I am excited to meet . But nothing could have prepared me for his house, he literally has the best and most beautifully built house in Bali . Epic on a scale I haven’t seen, designed on a level I haven’t seen . Who is Ed ?! Obviously he is wealthy, but it’s not really my business to ask .
We all eat Indonesian food that he had delivered . I wouldn’t want to eat any other kind on this night, must be local, must be special ! I swam in his pool and again I thanked Cat for introducing him to me, again I’m so lucky to know her, I can’t imagine this trip without her . I stay until the sun goes down and it looks even better than . Slow hot wind, dark blue sky… and this house of course - just perfection . Thank you Ed :)



Lisa and I spent a weekend in Uluwatu . All we do is seem to argue now, it’s so sad to watch a beautiful relationship disintegrate before my very eyes, the bickering, the pouty moods, I hate it all . When things are bad they are bad, but when they are good it feels better than any pleasure on earth .
The fact she’s older than me, more successful, taller, better looking, cooler in every way imaginable . It makes me feel great pride . The dirt bike is just the icing on the cake, seeing her weave in and out of traffic in a bright flowy orange blouse, and me - her little monkey hanging on for dear life behind her . The only thing better than a Bali sunset is when her face is in front of it .
I wonder if this relationship can continue as friends, though it's not looking hopeful . Although our time is coming to an end, I will think of her kindly and realize how lucky I was to be w/ her <3
