"...but I want to work on THIS"

Another Night at Klymax w/ my best friend Cat . I took her out for a lovely fancy dinner, to the place where Agatha and I had our last dinner on the last trip . On the way down from using the restroom upstairs, she commented that I have a bald spot . So I started to yell at her, asking why she would she that at this time . So I made her go back up the stairs to take a picture of the top of my head, like a Birds Eye view of it . There was nothing wrong at all w/ my hair, but i'm getting older so i was freaking out a little bit . So silly looking back on it

After the meal we take separate bikes and go to Klymax for some dancing and fun . Nina Kravitz was DJ’ing tonight, so it was going to be packed . Sally was there w/ a green fan looking gorgeous as ever . There was this blonde French girl I have been talking to on Tinder, and we ran into each other there . She asked me to come to Uluwatu next week to hang out w/ her . A day of going to the beach and possibly ill Sallotto after .

“I’d love that, my friend Jesus just opened a new hotel so I’ll book it tonight” i told her .

She introduced me to her friend w/ her and I did the same w/ Cat . The four of us danced for 30 minutes and I was having a blast .

I saw Evita (on the left) there as well . I think Gede showed me her insta last time I was here, “she’s the one” he said w/ a smile . I don’t think Bali has any relevant fashion scene, nor do I think anybody could model here in the big 4 cities, except for Evita . But beyond that, she’s just so cool, so many sporting activities and she drives a dirt bike on top of it . I saw on the dance floor and the first time ever in person so I beelined straight to her to say hello .

“Hi, my name is Jesse, I follow you on instagram and I wanted to tell you what a great model you are, and I’m a fan of you . I just wanted to introduce myself is all” . Before I looked at Evita, all I could see is her friend looking at me in a mild disgust, and I immediately became embarrassed . I didn’t know how it was going to pan out… but Evita was so sweet . I forgot what she said but it was something warm and polite . I asked her If I could take a picture of her and she agreed . So photogenic, what a lovely girl she is . Hopefully I will run into her again Xx

Lisa invited me to her friend’s housewarming party in Cemagi . Pizza was ordered and I was able to meet all of her friends, mostly from Australia, super successful and very kind . Then Mr. attractive came, Zubar is his name . I think he’s a model here, nice guy too . the owner through him into the pool . I couldn’t believe it . He was laughing about it and such a good sport, I would have freaked out . He was fully dressed for his Friday night after all .

We sat and drank and ate and laughed for hours . One of the most beautiful sunsets I’ve EVER seen . You wouldn’t think it could look like that unless you saw w/ your own eyes . Purple and magenta and a blue so deep you’d think it was a painting . But after that something really disturbed me…

His house is on an open field, soon to be many houses I’m sure . Next to it construction has started on a new house, and there are a few Indonesian men working in the mud . The girls are blasting 90’s hits from their era, Brittany, nSync, etc…. I felt a little uncomfortable because it’s all the construction guys can hear, I barely even think they are able to communicate w/ each other w/ how fucking loud the volume is . But to be fair… unless there is a noise rule, then you are allowed to play music loud, it is Friday after all . But to me the optics just kinda looked bad if you were watching from 50 meters away . Then the real issue came, one of the guests flicked a lit cigarette over the wall . I saw it, my eyes widened in shock . I looked over the wall immediately and saw a man in a crouching position, and a lit cigarette 5 feet from him . He was staring at it w/ a blank face . I motioned towards him w/ an apologetic praying hand gesture, and mouthing “I’m sorry” . Not sure if he understood .

I thought about what it felt like to be him, working in the mud as the gorgeous house next to you w/ white people in it are blasting their songs . And a lit cigarette comes flying over the wall towards you, not knowing if it is on purpose or accident . Could have burned him, luckily it didn’t . I imagined it would feel like you are dirt, like there is such a separation of life, of class… my mood changed instantly . I didn’t think what they did was intentional, but it was inconsiderate . I didn’t want to be there anymore . I told Lisa I wanted to go home to take a nap before we went out .

She was upset that I left, so I told her why . She relayed it back to the person . They denied it, but now they know I said something about it . So it’s weird . Was it my fault ? Should I have kept my mouth closed ? Perhaps I was being too sensitive . But there is a rift between Lisa and I, I just feel like we aren’t on the same page . And now I left a bad impression on her friends which I regret . Not sure how to go forward - what I should have done… I know I’m in my head too much, but that was extremely inconsiderate and not polite .

Two days ago I arrived in Uluwatu, going to meet the Frenchie for some sunshine and surf . We have been in contact everyday since I saw her at Klymax . I did not hear from her all m morning, even when I reached out twice . I arrive and am greeted by the hotel worker named Rezal, a soft spoken Indonesian man . We talk at the gate for 5 minutes  and I ask him for a tour . Then Jesus comes, we sit and talk about Cat (it’s how we met each other) and talk about him opening up this amazing hotel . He then has to attend some meetings and leaves me sitting by myself in lonesome mood . I came all this way to have a day and it’s already 4pm w/ no text back from the girl I came to see .

Around 5 she finally calls me . She tells me she has been busy trying to find a new home to move into on her last month, and that she is going out w/ some friends and wants me to join . 2 issues…

1 - that was not our plan, and if you were busy you could have at least texted me and let me know the situation .

2 - she does not know the extent of Jesse Somera’s pettiness, when he is scorned he will be in a mood for days . It’s immature but I cannot help it . I tell her it’s okay but ignore her for the rest of the day . She asked me back out twice, I should have swallowed my pride but I felt slighted, and I could not forgive . I normally don’t mind but first impressions are important to me and she handled this like shit .

I sat in my room at 6pm, wondered why I drove an hour and a half to come here . I had an idea, it was a shot in the dark but I tried anyways . I had a nice time w/ Camilla, so I called her and extended an invitation .

“Hey Camilla it’s me, random question, and I’m sure you’re busy…. But do you want to come see me in Uluwatu ? We can have dinner tonight then you can spend the night at this awesome hotel and tomorrow we’ll go swim in the pool, eat breakfast, go to the beach, have lunch…”

“Yes” *She interrupted*

“Really ? Tonight ?!” I yelled, you can hear the happiness through whatsapp .

“Yes”

“Really ?”

“How many times do you want me to say yes ?!” She snapped back . I started to laugh, she will miss the dinner because of timing but we are on for tonight and a full day tomorrow morning . I did what any man does who is angry and happy at the same time, and that is take pictures of his abs in the mirror :)

I then ride off to HOURS where I have a steak dinner by myself . I put my headphones on and watched YouTube while I ate at the bar, it was lovely . I never go out to dinner alone, but riding a bike on a hot summer night w/ a sleeveless t shirt makes the whole ordeal very sexy . She then arrived at around 10pm-ish and we sit by the pool and chat before bed .

The next day we had the most lovely and calm beach day . Breakfast at the usual spot, monkeys and beach at dreamland, pool at Kasia Ungasan, etc . Camilla is the most mature person that I have met in Bali, she talks very intently and slowly . She’s soft and sweet . It’s very hard to read her but I enjoy that aspect of her . She had this all-brown linen relaxed outfit, even down to the beanie and sunglasses, it looked amazing against her skin tone . We laughed and giggled and talked all day, she let me take endless photos and videos, I was being annoying as ever . I even asked for an extra late checkout on the room . When it was time to leave, around 3pm, I asked her what she was going to do . She replied, “I don’t know” as she just laid there in bed .